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Lord grant me the right attitude towards studies,

That even when I study, I want to glorify Your name.

Give me the strength that I may press on,

Perseverance that I can endure,

Good health that I may study effectively.

Help me to be single-minded when I study,

Remove all other thoughts, distractions and anxieties,

Give me the power to concentrate,

The ability to understand and to remember.

Show me the way to study intelligently,

To know what is important and what is not.

Provide me Lord with quality time in my studies,Remove all tensions and fears within me.

Fill me with Thy confidence,

Teach me to draw strength from You each day.

Let me learn to trust You in such times.

In the examination hall, be with me Lord.

Grant me the clarity and sharpness of thoughts.

Let me not get distracted by things around me.

Give me concentration and calmness Lord.

Help me to gather my thoughts of what I’ve learnt.

Grant me the discipline to space out time equally on all questions.

Most of all, help me to complete the questions on time.

Despite examination Lord, continue to grant me

Quality time with You let me not neglect You.

Give me a balanced diet between my studies and my service for You.

I just want to commit the whole examination into Your hands,

Knowing that You are a God who cares and answers prayers.

THANK YOU!

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ and Saviour, AMEN.

Specially dedicated to Felicia Lee from Jul Tiong. ((:

She dedicated this song to me and i nearly melt. Was just so close to tears.

Because you loved me

I hope this picture will reminds you of all the goods and bads we have been through. Stay strong. We will always be the best of friends and sheep/shepherd relationship in heart.

love love

Being a CL in DI and studying in NYP is a real challenge as I have to manage between school work, cca, ministry and pastoral. Thus, I learnt the essence of time management. Studying in NYP is really a new thing for me. Like the environment, people and adaptations. Having to juggle between studies and cca is really not easy. Cause all the energy will be used up to pay attention, focus and concentrate in class and after which I have to go for physical training. On top of that, NYP has this system of doing tutorial everyday. Which means there’s homework, assignment or research to be done on a daily basis. All these challenges I faced in life, I know that in all season and through all my adversities, God will be sovereign and still be there for me. I learn how to trust in God not only in small things that can be seens but big things that God has entrusted in my life. That’s why I want to give my all back to God.
 
Currently I am serving in two ministry which is drama and usher. It is fun yet challenging in these ministries as I serve God almost every week which is back to back. I also have 3 lovely sheeps with me now. Despite my busy and hectic schedule, I try my best to meet their needs, feed them, and give them biblical advice when they need them. I believe in giving God my all and doing my best in things that I have no full control over like my studies. Matthew 6:33
Why I say that is cause I ever experience studying so hard and giving so much to what seems like education but I still don’t get the expected or ideal grade. So I have learnt that studying hard is not equivalent to getting good grades. In fact, it’s all about trusting in God that works. I have learnt to rely on God as much as I know. On my part, I do what I can, and He do what I can’t.
 
The problems I am facing now has taught me to priortise and put God first in anything that I face or struggle with cause I know He will meet all my needs and satisfy me ultimately. Being patient, loving and understanding is something I have learnt when I deal or interact with my sheeps. Cause sometimes when things don’t turn out the way I have planned or expected it to be, I will tend to get really agitated and vexed but I have learnt to give them the benefit and doubt and its a testing from God about my fruit of the Spirit. Having to face different problems, hurdles and difficulties I learn to draw strength from God each time my tank is running low. Be it love, patience or faithfulness. And everytime God will never fail but to renew and refresh me.
 
I decided to move on to NYP for personal development. As I am able to connect with people from the same school, and identify with people who is in the same life station as I am. I hope to bring people to know God. I would like to break the virgin land in my school especially my course as there isn’t much fruit sowed. I believe in being a christian that happens to be a student than a student that happens to be a christian. I know well enough that when I move on, my needs will be met and I can do more for God even as an ordinary member. Cause ultimately its not how how holy, spiritual or how many people I am leading but my relationship with God. I don’t wish to lose this precious relationship with God that’s why I would like to make full use of myself when I am in student ministry. I aim to be the salt and light to the people around me especially my classmates. I want to sow on them and work on them so that one day they will also come to know God and the whole earth rejoices. I realise that ever since I started school, I am not able to meet the needs of the people in the cg especially my sheeps. I became more ineffective and inefficient due to the many things I am juggling on hand. So I think moving on would be a better option for me to grow and impact.

today went for tape watching at church office. its abt a soul-winners heart by david allbritton.

its really practical and heart warming. it talks alot about hell and like the kinda people we will face when we evax. 1 eg that was given is when you are being caught when speeding VS facing God during the judgement day. ive learnt the importance and significance of what it truly means to be in hell. though no one has ever fathom or been through that but its logical that hell is not an enjoyable or cool place t be. the one reason why people in hell cry is only for one reason, that is knowing that the lost soul is not being saved! thus if its not for hell, we can choose not to bother. but the fact that weder we like it or not, hell do exist. therefore, all the more we shud be involve and share the gd news t the rest. share cause u dont want to see the others going to hell. especially your family, friends, contact and loved  ones. i really wana hv this heart tt is sensitive enough to God and the Holy Spirit. I want God to cause my heart to be so soft that whatever break Gods heart, will break mine. just like seeing or knowing that those people who are not save have to go to hell is a heart wrenching thing. its very scary but true as we live in this world. everything is so uncertain and unpredictable but one thing for sure is that deres appt we have with death. and according to the bible, when u die, u have to face God (judgement day).

the pain of hell cant be compare to any kinda pain on earth. be it suffering with incurrable disease or sickness, or any minor or major injuries that we know of, seen, heard and experience before. THIS IS HELL.

one qns that keeps many of us thinking, ponderin and wonderin..

that is how far away is hell?

the answer is: a heartbeat away. thats how close hell is. no matter what state of life we are livin now, someday all things will fade and go away but only God stays and remain true.

ive learnt that theres pleasure in sins for a season. sin is costly and it brings death. its gonna destroy our lives. the choice u make will determine your destination.

thanks for readin and keepin urself updated, may u be bless after readin.

Romans 6:23 (New International Version)

Some people might say life sucks
or life is full of shit
While other people say life is beautiful
or life is full of surprises
I must say, I agree with all those
Life is whatever you think of it..and everything you think of it
Life is what you make it of it and what you say of it.

Life is about sadness
Life is about happiness
Life is about pain
Life is miserable
Life is about loss
Life is about smiling
Life is about crying
Life is about love
Life is about laughter
Life is about learning from your mistakes
Life is horrible
Life is dumb
Life is awesome
Life is depression
Life is tears
Life is sorrow
Life is anxiety
Life is Bullshit
Life stinks
Life sucks
I could go on and on and tell you all about life
But I’m not here to sort this out for you
cuz..
Life is all about you and how you treat it
You criticizes it…well, you’re actually criticizing yourself
You like it, you hate it..well, its all up to you
Life is you so be careful how you describe it

When tomorrow starts without me, and I’m not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me, as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me, I know you’ll miss me, too;
But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name and took my by the hand,
And said my place was ready in heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away, a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for and so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared and all the fun we had.
If I could relieve yesterday, I thought, just for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see your smile.

But then I fully realized that this could never be,
For emptiness and memories would take the place of me.
And when I thoufht of wordly things that I’d miss tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates, I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me, from His great golden throne,
He said. “This is eternity and all I’ve promised you,
Today for life on Earth is past but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
And since each day’s the same day, there’s no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true,
Though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn’t do.
But you have been forgiven and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you take my hand and share my life with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me, don’t you think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.

The sharp edge of the razor cuts my skin easily,
I’m numb to the pain,
Numb to the blood,
Too numb to realize what’s happening,
To realize what I’m doing.
One cut follows another,
And another,
Till I can’t stop.
The razor falls from my hand,
Blood drips down my arm,
Tears roll down my cheeks,
What have I done?

The complex emotions leaked from my flesh in the form of blood, rather than from my eyes in the form of tears. I cut, just to bleed, to know that I was still breathing, to feel my heart race and my nerves stir. My secret, my addiction.  No longer.

It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on Earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had.